realizing..

today i realized something very important that i've always tried to figure out. there are different kinds of friends. friends that you know you won't talk to in a few years. friends that you are there for but aren't there for you when you need them. friends that only talk to you when they need something. friends that you only shop with. friends that drop in and out of your life. friends that are your "friends" when they have no one else. and then there are friends that you know you can call on anytime of the day on any given day and you know they will be there regardless. it is true when they say it is hard to find a true friend. but of course there are exceptions of each kind.

i had a really boring and bad day today. i was really lonely. and tortured. it's not a good idea to put three women in one house. esp. when each one of them are born in different generations. it gets reeeeeeeeeeeeeeally annoying. i believe that i am better off living with a stranger somewhere far.. but not too far. somewhere like riverside. dorming was a great experience. it taught me that i am more than capable to start a new life with new acquaintances and new friends. but of course there were those times when i missed home. today, i needed girl talk.. or to just be with people, preferably girls or someone gay. i had a lot of time to feel alone. i didnt like it at all especially because i have no freedom back at home. well not enough to just go out and do whatever i feel like. these are times when i feel like i need someone. but really, i don't. no one needs someone. i just want someone to be there. like in the movie, my best friends wedding.. that gay guy lol. or like sex and the city, the group of girls.